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July 09, 2008
Moving Through Molasses
This will likely be a short post, and it may not be coherent :). We're all quite exhausted today after a rough night with Natalie. Believe it or not, Charlotte slept very well with a 4 hour stretch between meals! But an hour after I woke up feeling excited and refreshed about that, the elder daughter was up hollering. Praise the Lord :( I really can't be mad at her. She's done SO well overall and is doing normal two-year-old adjusting to a sibling stuff. But holy cow, I'm tired.
Every day I desire to blog...or call a friend...or write a note. I'll have a little encouragement from God, or fun insight, or a sweet moment with Natalie or Charlotte that I want to blog or get down in a journal. But these days I often feel as though I'm moving through molasses and cannot get out of my own way or complete a simple task. Much of the time I am at peace with this and can tell myself it is a perfectly ok place to be for a mom of two at two weeks postpartum. But I'm also having some moments of "Argh! Will I ever get anything done? How will I meet the needs of both my children?" I'm feeling out of sorts and ungrounded with our routine not yet established and barely having quiet times and just getting through the basic needs of the day. I totally know this will all come with time. I know God understands. I also know that it won't ever be like it was before and I do need to have contentment and adjust my expectations. I know it's enough right now to just care for my family, and I want to savor every moment with my little ones. I think I'm doing that, but I need God's help to do it even more and put myself aside. But in my hormonal state it can be difficult to think logically :)
Recently in a tearful moment of not being able to fall asleep during a precious baby naptime, a verse came into my mind...
"Like a shepherd He will tend His flock,
In His arm He will gather the lambs
And carry them in His bosom;
He will gently lead the nursing ewes."
Then I of course had another tearful moment except this time a happy one :)So good to know that God is looking out for us mommies and understands that we need a lot of very gentle leading as we are somewhat fragile. Such a great picture to keep in my mind when I'm feeling weary.
So now one girl is down and the other is close behind her, and I'm going to head to bed as well. Just know I'm thinking of you all often even if I don't make it to the phone or get out for a visit. Tough to fit these things in to my "Dairy Bar" schedule :)
Posted by Shannon at July 9, 2008 11:05 AM
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