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July 28, 2008
This Week's Highs and Lows of Motherhood
Low: Getting grumpy with my eldest because she's moving like molasses or being defiant or doing any number of other normal two-year-old things that in my sleep-deprived state I find annoying instead of endearing. Especially difficult when she chooses the moment when Charlotte is screaming with an immediate need. Right away feeling extremely ashamed of my lack of patience and unconditional love for her. Apologizing to my toddler...again.
High: Activities with Natalie when Charlotte naps....making bread together, reading books, playing in her sandbox...special moments when I feel like a good and creative mommy again :)
Low: Getting the two princesses packed and ready for a trip to lake on 3 to 4 hours of sleep while they scream in unison. Having to stop to nurse on the way, further delaying our arrival, because Girl #2 hasn't eaten in 1 1/2 hours and is wasting away!
High: Getting to the lake where there are many willing arms. Swimming by myself, soaking up the sun, catching up with family, watching my husband (who hates water) don his bathing suit and play in the water with Natalie (falling in love all over again!), in general feeling totally restored by a day in the great outdoors, having a good chat with hubby on the ride home while the divas sleep. :)
Low: Pacing with screaming Charlotte in the snuggly at 3 in the morning while singing worship choruses (to calm me) in tears. Other times the lyrics I sing are not so nice, although sung in a sweet and soothing voice. :)
High: Lying in bed with Charlotte sweetly asleep on my chest, listening to Natalie sing her version on the Veggie Tales theme song in her crib. Life is good...
High: Sneaking downstairs when Charlotte is up for the day to let the rest of the family sleep. Starting bread dough and mixing pancake batter. Feeling like Super Mommy and forgetting my fatigue.
Low: Screwing up my bread recipe an hour later when feeding Natalie breakfast, doing dishes and trying to hurry to feed once-again screaming Charlotte. More tears, but brief this time. Regain my perspective and don't let it ruin my day, salvage the bread...no more multi-tasking. Can you say "Pride goeth before a fall?" :)
High: Finding comic relief in catching Charlotte with her fist in her hair, screaming, unable to figure out how to let go...or is that a low? Hmmm....
Photos of our bread and lake time to follow...
Posted by Shannon at July 28, 2008 01:16 PM
Comments
Aaaaah - a fantastic post! Such a great picture of those early days of figuring out how to mesh life with two...hmmmm....still figuring that out now that I mention it! :0) You are so fabulous, Shannon! Seriously - can't wait to once again live close to you. You are such a wonderful Mommy! Adorable little bread tins.....:0) So glad you were able to get refreshed for a bit! Much love!
Posted by: kevame@verizon.net at July 28, 2008 08:44 PM
I love the photos! So great! And you are doing great, girl. Let me know if you need me to come hold Charlotte so that you can sleep... : )
Posted by: Esther at July 29, 2008 11:16 AM
*hugs*
Shannie, you give me hope. Love you so much!
Posted by: Katie at July 29, 2008 10:43 PM
Hey! I tagged you....go take a peeky. No pressure to post for awhile! I love you!
Posted by: kevame@verizon.net at August 3, 2008 08:04 PM